Considering it was only a few years ago that I was literally attched to devi like glue, all I ever do now is forget that I even am apart of this, I dont write any more, my ability at art could maybe be classed as 'promising for a seven year old' and the only phots I ever take are dorky ones of me and my mates and my bf...I have long since lost my muse (otherwise known as the teenage angst that fueled me) and have come to terms with that. It sucks, but Im very proud that once upon a time, I coujld say that not only was I a writer, but that I also had one or two fans. Not too bad really.

So valentines day is coming up, the second with my carl; I got two gifts for him and apparently I got three coming my way. Squee, I love presents. His aren't to great though, valentines gifts dont really cater for girls to give to guys, and I do feel that its unfair. So considering I am currently being forced to watch every single episode of 24 before the movie comes out, I decided to get him a 24 CTU mug and tax disk holder. Might even call him agent barrett for the day....meybe not. I did consider the crappy, cheesy, over-the-top valentines day bull; making him a mix cd of all the songs that remind me of him or getting a stuff toy of a photo frame with a pic of us in it....but i realised that i would only be going it because its what i want (less so the stuffed toy) and would be hinting. So i figure get him something fun....24 is fun (?) and useful (he has been moaning about his god-awful, hold-no-heat mugs and how his tax disk keeps falling off)

Unfortuntly, Valentines day will only be shorted lived as he gotta bugger off to work at two and wont get out till 10 in the evening. So it'll be a flying visit....not that I mind. We'll do a valentines day thing the week after; his mum and soon-to-be step-dad got us a gift voucher for this uber expensive and lush looking resturant as a xmas present, and we decided that as we didnt have a lot of money going on due to us saving for the holiday, we'd have that as our v-day thing. And hopefully he followed the rules on spending not more than a tenner for v-day. Im not cheap, and v-day is lovely, but I dont see the point of killing yourself for a day that has been so awfully commercised. Dont get me wrong, now I got a bf, I love v-day....but I still prefer xmas and halloween.....and my birthday a heck of a lot more. Prove your love every day, not just once a year. Make it special sure, but dont use it to make up for not keeping your love special.

So zen right now.